It hurts.

Ok. Seriously. I need to get a grip. I'm sitting here almost crying cause I just read a post of a girl who has been to some of the Kanjani-cons now. And I CAN'T STAND NOT BEING THERE! Really!! It HURTS! 
How do people survive not going to concerts once you've started? Please someone, TELL ME HOW?!

I'm gonna go hide in a corner now.