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[dansdansdans]

Somewhat panicy feeling here. I realized that my school application needs to be done soon. Last day to apply is the 1st of May and I haven't done anything yet. I still need to get a hold of the people I want as references who are being great at hiding their mail addresses, I need to write a personal letter and get all old school papers in order and copied to send. Why haven't I started yet.

I'm also worrying about me staking it all on this one school. If I don't get in, I'll be without anything to do for a loooong time and I don't want that. I need to move, I can't stay here living of my parents and just, living here is not for me anymore. But if I don't get in, how the hell will I be able to move, if I don't have any money I can't move, and I can't get work anywhere else if I don't have the money to move. And I hate the stupid financial crisis that is making it even harder to get any jobs.

Aaah~ I should not think so much about it. It will just make me worried and unable to do anything at all.

I'm dreaming about getting away to somewhere where I can live day by day without having to think longer than that. Just go wherever my impulses is taking me. That craves money. Something I don't have.
And I was so sure that I'd get to work at least a little when I got back, but there has been no work. >___<

I'm going out to work in the garden now, because my dad won't stop nagging, and when I get back inside I'm gonna sit down and write that stupid letter.

Comments

[girlearthless.livejournal.com]

Ah, it seems like an overwhelming situation for you right now :| *hugs* I tend to snowball things, but I think once you put everything down in steps, like what you just did, it'll get easier. I'm sure you can do it, with one step at a time. Have you looked at any other schools you might be interested in?

[therese-chan.livejournal.com]

Yees. I just have to get down to start working on everything. XDD I haven't really found anything else that I really feel like going to, except for some schools that I couldn't apply for, since the auditions were when I was still in Japan.