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[dansdansdans]

Somewhat panicy feeling here. I realized that my school application needs to be done soon. Last day to apply is the 1st of May and I haven't done anything yet. I still need to get a hold of the people I want as references who are being great at hiding their mail addresses, I need to write a personal letter and get all old school papers in order and copied to send. Why haven't I started yet.

I'm also worrying about me staking it all on this one school. If I don't get in, I'll be without anything to do for a loooong time and I don't want that. I need to move, I can't stay here living of my parents and just, living here is not for me anymore. But if I don't get in, how the hell will I be able to move, if I don't have any money I can't move, and I can't get work anywhere else if I don't have the money to move. And I hate the stupid financial crisis that is making it even harder to get any jobs.

Aaah~ I should not think so much about it. It will just make me worried and unable to do anything at all.

I'm dreaming about getting away to somewhere where I can live day by day without having to think longer than that. Just go wherever my impulses is taking me. That craves money. Something I don't have.
And I was so sure that I'd get to work at least a little when I got back, but there has been no work. >___<

I'm going out to work in the garden now, because my dad won't stop nagging, and when I get back inside I'm gonna sit down and write that stupid letter.

Comments

[girlearthless.livejournal.com]

Ah, it seems like an overwhelming situation for you right now :| *hugs* I tend to snowball things, but I think once you put everything down in steps, like what you just did, it'll get easier. I'm sure you can do it, with one step at a time. Have you looked at any other schools you might be interested in?

[therese-chan.livejournal.com]

Yees. I just have to get down to start working on everything. XDD I haven't really found anything else that I really feel like going to, except for some schools that I couldn't apply for, since the auditions were when I was still in Japan.

[airairo.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* ;_;

It's definitely a tough situation to be in. >_< I really hate this stupid global economic crisis thing... can we just be over it already? D: I really reallyreally hope you get into that school. I have my fingers and toes and eyes and everything crossed for you. It might be good to come up with backup plans, but if that's the school you want you should go right for it and do your best to get in!

I want to live day by day too. Let's get really rich somehow and just travel the world~ Or get jobs at the jimusho as Eito's personal assistants~ ;D

[therese-chan.livejournal.com]

*clings*

Mm. Stupid stupid crisis! And thaaaank you hon! ♥

Oooh~ We would do such a GREAT job as their assistants. *____*

[moka-n-waffles.livejournal.com]

Mmmmn. Good luck! <3 Hope you get accepted in the school! <3

You see, I'm like you sometimes... I just want to lie down and do nothing, even though I KNOW something has to be done. Then I think "OMG let's do it, otherwise nothing will ever change" and then I do it. Ot at least try to.

For ex., I'm gonna graduate by the end of the year and I don't have any idea of where am I gonna work (if I get a job immediately) and when will I be able to leave my parents' house (something they imagine I'll never do before getting married. And I don't even know if I'll marry one day D:).

No school, no job, no money, that's it. So let's work hard and then seek our dreams! <3 *poetic time*

[therese-chan.livejournal.com]

Thanks~ I hope so!

It's difficult to firts know what you want to do, and then also realise whatever it is!

But yeah! Let's seek our dreams!! ♥ *yey for being poetic*