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[dansdansdans]

Somewhat panicy feeling here. I realized that my school application needs to be done soon. Last day to apply is the 1st of May and I haven't done anything yet. I still need to get a hold of the people I want as references who are being great at hiding their mail addresses, I need to write a personal letter and get all old school papers in order and copied to send. Why haven't I started yet.

I'm also worrying about me staking it all on this one school. If I don't get in, I'll be without anything to do for a loooong time and I don't want that. I need to move, I can't stay here living of my parents and just, living here is not for me anymore. But if I don't get in, how the hell will I be able to move, if I don't have any money I can't move, and I can't get work anywhere else if I don't have the money to move. And I hate the stupid financial crisis that is making it even harder to get any jobs.

Aaah~ I should not think so much about it. It will just make me worried and unable to do anything at all.

I'm dreaming about getting away to somewhere where I can live day by day without having to think longer than that. Just go wherever my impulses is taking me. That craves money. Something I don't have.
And I was so sure that I'd get to work at least a little when I got back, but there has been no work. >___<

I'm going out to work in the garden now, because my dad won't stop nagging, and when I get back inside I'm gonna sit down and write that stupid letter.

Comments

[moka-n-waffles.livejournal.com]

Mmmmn. Good luck! <3 Hope you get accepted in the school! <3

You see, I'm like you sometimes... I just want to lie down and do nothing, even though I KNOW something has to be done. Then I think "OMG let's do it, otherwise nothing will ever change" and then I do it. Ot at least try to.

For ex., I'm gonna graduate by the end of the year and I don't have any idea of where am I gonna work (if I get a job immediately) and when will I be able to leave my parents' house (something they imagine I'll never do before getting married. And I don't even know if I'll marry one day D:).

No school, no job, no money, that's it. So let's work hard and then seek our dreams! <3 *poetic time*

[therese-chan.livejournal.com]

Thanks~ I hope so!

It's difficult to firts know what you want to do, and then also realise whatever it is!

But yeah! Let's seek our dreams!! ♥ *yey for being poetic*